Blessed

He picked his sister up off of her knees and told her to never let anyone bring her down. Knowing her heart, he tells her to be patient because none of them deserve a girl like her...

Sometimes I just want to find the one and be in the point of my life where I am married and have a stable career, but I have to remember to be patient and my time will come. I have never heard words so sincere and breathtaking directed towards me. I am really lucky to have Adam as my brother. I don't mean to embarrass him, but I want to put this here so I can always remember just like the texts I keep every time I empty my inbox.  I know there will come a time very soon when I can't talk to him whenever I want to. I'm dreading not being able to talk to him once he ships off to the military, but I know in my heart that we will always be in touch. He has been a blessing to me and I can never thank him enough for everything he has done for me.  

A friend of mine wrote "friends come and go, family is forever. that is not to say that you should not treasure your friends, but be able to distinguish between those that will forever be close to you as family and those that you will lose to time." I completely agree with this. There are very few friends that I have grown to consider my family, but that makes them all the more special. I know I can trust these people with anything just like I can trust my real family.

Axell has really become my best friend in Denton. I have never felt so close to anyone and had them as a constant support. I can trust her to never judge me and we are so similar that her opinion is like seeing my life from the outside looking in. My dearest Julia is another blessing. We met over a bad situation, but it was like we were brought together to make each other stronger. We have been inseparable since we met. I could go on for days about the people who make my life so blessed, but I should probably stop now. My point is as long as you have people who love you, you can get through anything. Look around  you and see how blessed you are. I thank God for the people in my life.

Fab-Friend!

Last night was a blast. I went to the Hydrant and saw a couple of awesome bands! Wombology, Ready Steady and Human Groove Hormone were legit. Watching HGH perform was the highlight of my night. Schumacher is a trip, I wish he still lived in Bruce. It was never a dull moment with him last year. They will all be performing again very soon at Bruce Jam. It was good seeing everyone out though =] After that we went to see a drag show hosted by GLAD at a gay bar. I could honestly say it was a blast! I love gay people =] It was a lot of fun. I met a few interesting people. My friend and I met someone who was born as a girl, but is transitioning into a guy, but was dressed in drag as a queen and is into guys. Confused? It's so awesome that someone would have the strength to go to such lengths to do what it takes to feel comfortable in their own skin. So, I am not a stranger to the term "fag-hag." I have been told it's a term of endearment, but I prefer not to be called a hag and I just don't like the word fag. My friends and I came up with a new term for it, "fab-friend!" Yep, that's me! If my mother only knew ;D

Maneater.

Maneater. I hate it when a girl is so obviously a maneater. What's worse is that the guys don't see it, no matter how much you warn them. It starts by her being so bubbly and friendly, to some obviously flirting... with everyone. Not just one, but multiple guys. Yah it's okay until someone gets hurt. Then the girl has them hooked. It's like she collects the guy like a card in her deck. She even makes it so bad for him that he's willing to be just the option. Obviously I'm ranting about someone, but this is my space to do it. I hate standing there watching my friends get hurt. I swear I want to deck this girl, but I'm better than that.

I've been so up and down lately. I have had a bad few weeks. I just hate being treated like crap. I'm pretty, smart, and have a great sense of humor. I don't care who you are, I won't change myself to conform to what you want me to be. I am ME. I spent most of my life hiding behind my friends and keeping my emotions so bottled up. I refuse to go back to that. I am so much happier in my own skin. When I see people in the shell I so clearly used to be in, I try to crack it. I want to know who you are, and I want to see you shine in all of that glory.

Sometimes, I just wish it would be years from now. I want to start my life and stop living in this in between. I want to graduate with a BS/MS in Accouting and a BBA in General Business, pass the CPA exam and be working at a small accouting firm. I want to be married to the perfect nerd and have the perfect little family together. If only it were that simple...